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UncategorizedJuly 8, 2007

A little fearful.

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Ummm… hi guys.
I know I haven’t really been up to much talking lately. Maybe it’s cuz talking doesn’t really do me much good. I feel a little lost without having a “real” job and being away from home. I was reminsicing when i chatted with a friend about my first time leaving home to pursue what I wanted to do.
It’s been almost four years since I left home, having to do what I needed to do. Residual cheques from my movies and honorariums from my play kept me from incurring too much debt. I moved in with a Singaporean couple who helped nurture me from any harm and helped me with my bearings around the city. I truly believe this was God’s doing.
Slowly, I was passed onto hands of good friends before I moved to a Victorian home on a street notorious for prostitutes and crackheads. Nonetheless, God told me to be humble. He told me that even if my face was half-paralyzed, that He’d still love me. I was so thankful again. I was so thankful that He had already blessed me so much for 20 years and this was just another test.
My third residence was a shuffle with old Vancouverites and new Vancouverites. The SAS pad turned into the SYD pad. My walk to school was a lil further and my passion for seeking direction started making me anxious. I found my “dream job” and turned out to be a nightmare but I walked out with amazing contacts with extremely talented individuals. In all the bad, God always has a way to make it good.
By helping out my girlfriend with her business and then moving in with her down by the Quay, I started getting a little more erratic. I was both lazy and hardworking at the same time. Now, I had won two competitions prior to graduation. McGregor’s Marketing Project and Shiseido’s The Skincare Poster Design. My complaints about not accomplishing enough by the time I was 24 was turning out better than I thought. Without any expectations, I was once again humbled by my peers and the calibre of work I was competing against. Perhaps once again, God was looking after me again.
So even though I get down about not having a set 9-5 job or pushing a 6 figure income by the time i hit 30. I’m trying to take my little steps. I’m part of a great team that promotes highly successful parties for the sake of having a good time and making sure everyone else is… (in a mature-Asian-crowd-sorta way) via Citrus/Bloom. Also, I have a fitting and then a shooting schedule for American Pie 6. My Utours show will be launched in September.
So ya… I guess I do have a couple things going for me. Maybe my personal life is not entirely personal if people are trying to hound other people about my status.
I’m OK guys. I’m just at a plateau. I told myself that my mantra for 2007 was going to be: HEAR ME ROAR.
I’m not saying much till I have God’s help to ROAR LOUD AGAIN!! 😉
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5 Comments

  • LeXXuS
    July 9, 2007 at 12:34 am
    You gotta stop worrying; the difference of when I was buying all my meats from chinatown and working a dead-end, low-paying job in a fucking cubicle to making six figures and drinking Tropicana and buying Heinz and having an office 2 feet from my bed all happened in one month.

    That's all you need, man, one month. And you have hundreds of months before you hit 30.

    (And stop all the God talk. That'll do nothing but get you punched in the face. By me.)
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  • MissFobatronicGeekazoid
    July 9, 2007 at 3:45 am

    hope everything works out for you hunny...you truly deserve all the best. i will hear you roar again...real soon too!! keep your chin up...God help those who help themselves =)

    Reply
  • nightstar
    July 9, 2007 at 8:22 am
    ur maturity amazes me. from what you wrote, i know you'll go far! further than what you've ever dream of. keep going girl! :)
    Reply
  • happy_kid
    July 10, 2007 at 1:29 am
    keep on chuggin' sarah =p
    Reply
  • ecnerwalgnay
    July 10, 2007 at 3:08 pm
    Sweet! energize!
    Reply

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